Nirvana

CR Lama in Bodh Gaya

I was sitting on the floor of a bedroom on Rörstrandsgatan in Stockholm. I was the driver and attendant of Chhimed Rigdzin Rinpoche on his visit, teaching and giving initiations in Stockholm Sweden. 

As I sat there on the floor turned towards Rinpoche and he sitting in his wheel chair he looked at me and uttered a few words. “Nirvana is tree words in Sanskrit, nir-va-djna, literally meaning without wrong thoughts.” That was all. But as so often a word, a glance, a sentence can contain a seed of profound instruction. I grasped quite well the meaning behind those words as he spoke them. 

Over the years they have had a deep impact on me and I in someway feel those words were meant for me as a personal instruction. There were others in the room, but as I looked at them it seemed like no one had heard him except me. No one reacted and the moment was over very quickly, a few seconds.

So who is CR Lama, who is Chhimed Rigdzin Rinpoche? He is the reincarnation of Shariputra, the closest student of Buddha Shakyamuni. Not much else need to be said. Though it is a great story to hear about his other lives and the things he did. Very inspiring. 

Muhammed, the warrior prophet.

An article from Historynet telling about Muhammad as the general and warrior. It is written by Richard A. Gabriel, a military historian and adjunct professor at the Royal Military College of Canada, has authored forty-one books. His latest is Muhammad: Islam’s First Great General (Oklahoma University Press, 2007). An important text in the religious debate, but unfortunately banned on Facebook. 

 Muhammed, the warrior prophet.

Same old, same old...

Sun on my altar

Days pass one after the other. Sleeping late, very late, or rather early morning. Most often five in the morning I fall asleep as fatigue takes me over. 

Today I had a most sad report from a friend, it has marked my day, I love him dearly. In fact when I think about others, when I think about Love or Life or Humans I just Love. I can find no rational reason for my feelings.

It is hard to be Nils Eldor, a person who can not find it in him to hate anyone. I will not brag, and it is not bragging, I just sometimes think that if anyone could see inside my being, inside my mind, inside my head and the marvel of warmth there is, the kindness, the silence, the intelligence. And yes, that is so for everyone is it not? :D 

Such a clarity that nothing can be hidden or stowed away for long. My Lama say I Live in a constant experience of non-duality and that I know everything. Well that is not so at all, yes the non-duality is there but I do not know everything, I just have few barriers to the world, there is an openness there, a vast landscape, open skies, open plains, a view, so much space. And yes, that is so for everyone is it not? :D 

Calm deep breaths, heart that beats, perfect eyesight and feeling every little inch of my body. Feeling my teeth fastened to my skull, the fingernails to my fingers, feeling everything. And yes, that is so for everyone is it not? :D 

Same old, same old... I sit here in my little room, a small toilet, a small kitchenette, a fridge, a window with a small balcony, in a large house in a small park. A park that have every tree growing in the northern temperate hemisphere. And I wait, wait for the time when I am free to go, to roam the world. Often I wonder how much more time we have before the greed of the industrial capitalist and the stupidity of people have destroyed this world. 

The bearded man

I am getting bored, or am I? Not sure I can get bored. I have patience like an old stone under the trees in the forest. I can sit and just be for days, just watching time pass, morning, midday and the sun setting. I Love to see the light grow dim, dusk and the night arriving.

Soon my fast starts again. I am turning 60 this year, in August. As time passes and life is longer the only true thing I have found to do is to make things with my hands, to meet people, to Love people, to travel and take part in what others create. The meaning of Life is to be happy. To find that inner center of great Joy. The heart that the world revolves around. 

Child Human.

Mother India

I wrote something today on a reply to the idea of the Abrahamic paradise, that "paradise" is the goal to aim for, I would like to share what I wrote. Most often, or rather always I don't think out what to write, it just arrives as if I had nothing to do with it.

..., dear friend. On this I do not agree, in fact I strongly disagree with it. And difference of opinion are to be meet in peace and friendship.

In old India, when two teachers meet for debate the one who lost the debate became the student of the victor and all of his students also became the students of the person who had greater wisdom. Unfortunately that is not so in Religion any more, today everyone wage war when they loose a debate, that or never enter a true discussion at all.

Imagine something very different. Human kind is a species of being who came into existence on a planet that circle around a Star in a galaxy in one of the many universes. Humans are very young, just born out of the mother Earth.

Earth, soil is the life of this planet, a planet on which all things live in a perfect balance of birth life and death. All things on this planet is dependent on all others, on the soil we walk on. Without this planet, without the life around us we go into the darkness.

We are just born as a species. We are children and as children we fight and bicker about just everything.

Growing up

So what is our future? We could grow up to become adult humans, we could learn responsibility and honesty, we could end wars and confusion. The key to doing so is to understand that the thoughts in a persons head is a part of the sensory organs and is not YOU. Thoughts are a kind of residue of the process of the sensory organs, gathering information about the world to make it presentable to us, understandable to us. So as this imaginary personality we carry around actually do not exist, not as we think, the EGO is an empty cocoon filled with lost dreams, with fear, with hate, with indifference. We could grow up and understand that being right about just every stupid idea we have is not going to get us anywhere, better then to stand with two feet in the soil and squarely and fairly work with others, as we are social beings. No one can survive alone.

As adults we could make this world into a paradise, into a garden of "Eden", but will we ever manage to become adults? Will we like children without adult supervision end our life in a cataclysm of stupidity?

As adults we could travel the stars. We could bring in an era of peace and prosperity, of unity and clarity. We are Gods, but will we ever take up the potential the human race is, or will we go into oblivion, will we disappear as a race under the burden of ignorance?

My brother, in all honesty the religions of this world are responsible for much of the confusion we now have, or one could say humans have expressed their confusion in the way they create and maintain religion. This do not mean spirituality and mysticism is not a reality.

But we have to understand that the myths and stories of old are just that, myths and stories and nothing else. And they prevent us from becoming Adults.

Eldor Alterskjær 

Tulku Yeshe Trögyal 

A break in the fast.

It is day 8 in the morning and I will have to take a break from the fasting. I have a vicious urinary tract infection that do not heal, took antibiotics before I started but it do not heal, will have to go to the doc tomorrow and start up on another cure.

Last time I had it I ended up in blood poisoning and an hour to live, 6 days in intensive care, I do not want that again. So will get going with the fast after I have got well. 　 Not very happy about it, the fast is going so well this time. Soon soon soon I will be back.

Day 7

So day seven have arrived. All is well :D No worries. Sleeping is still bad and breathing is not good. I simply stop breathing and have to get going by force. But I will do more yoga and breathing practises to see if it will get better. Might also be the more weight I loose that will go away, though I doubt it. 

Fourth day :D

Today is the forth day on my fast, still very early in the fast so there is not much to say about it. I feel much better today, yesterday was terrible, I almost ended my fast but now things are good :D 

Started water fasting.

Vår in Gothenburg

Spring equinox, spring is here, sun shine down on me through the window as I write here in Gothenburg, Göteborg. So I started water fasting yesterday. 

I will during the days to come make a v-log on how things are going. Last time I fasted, last summer, it helped me a lot, I did 14 days. This time I will try to do a longer fast, I aim at 33 days, but that is up for debate between me and this body I created and live in. 

On top of this I will learn more, a lot more on nutrition then I do know now, hope to grasp how to set up a way of eating that will help me gain optimal health. I am in no doubt that such a thing is possible.